BLESSED ALWAYS

I am blessed another day. To wake up and do what I am destined to do. Wherever the journey takes.

Everyday is a blessing no matter the circumstances. My pain, discomfort, trials and experiences are still there. Yet, I am becoming a better version . I am loving me more. I am accepting and moving forward.

Blessed to have support, love, guidance, family, friends, amazing spouse, challenges, food, clothing, shelter, light, gospel, talents, trials, gifts, service, and wisdom.

Stop and see your blessings. Not when tragedy hits. Not when goodness is around or an answered prayer. Stop. Listen. Look. Feel. Count your blessings. Everywhere. Every second. Every day. Within you. Around you. What you’re going through. Within each other. You are each others blessing. You have a purpose.

OBSERVATION IN THE WORLD

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As I’m studying and sit back and watch family, friends, and others around the world whether in person or on social media, I find there is favoritism to some. Make sense? That those who are more “followed ” noticed, more connected, and suffering more ( even vulnerable) has and get more support, attention, help, guidance, praises and non judgement.

Being bullied for a physical or emotional illness. For looks, wealth, talents, religion and more. How it’s fine for family members to reach out and it’s all great and caring. But for others it’s “you’re crazy ” or ” who cares” same with online or among friends. Why should certain ones be noticed and not all?

For those that are suffering in silence or not that have tremendous trials or going through things that family, friends or others may know tend to be judged, offended, forgotten, unappreciated, not helped in any way and more or less ” oh, you’re strong” ” you’ll get through it” “someone else is suffering worse” “you chose certain choices, so that’s why you’re suffering physically, emotionally, or financially”

It erks me to see the comparisons. The words, the actions, and hurt. As I’ve always support all I can in any way. I know we all suffer and handle ourselves in our own way. But I don’t choose one person more than the other because of “popularity of their struggles” make sense?

I find in this world we’re all important. I have seen the side of being pushed aside because of those that ASSUME I’m strong. Assume that my depression, anxiety, bullying, emotional, physical and financial struggles aren’t important. But I can easily be there for another without question.

My thought process sees this all the time. And when you’ve endured it , it makes you more empathetic and strong to love another more. I wish we could all be on the same page. And that if someone reaches for help whether in person, online, in text or however, to listen. To not judge. Just be there. Vulnerability is wonderful for that’s how we work on becoming better. But pushing others aside for someone else’s life or story, is the most evil way I see .

We all matter. We all need support. And it should happen before things get worse or yo late. Each of us is human and not a number. Not a idol nor a prize. Our emotions and struggles are important.

I don’t know if this makes sense, but does yo me. And I love working on my degree in family science to better understand not only myself but others. For we all need someone.

Light Shines

Light will shine even on gloomy days. You must seek within to see the outside.
No one is more perfect, greater, or important.

We are all being perfected. We are all a work in progress. Each of us takes our own steps in our own time.

I am not perfect. I do not have all sunny days. For I acknowledge and accept what is and what can be. I work hard to strengthen myself. Yet, in my way and my time I see the light within not only myself but in all others. We belong ♡

Trials Build You Up

As I take a moment to reflect all that I have been through and all I am going through, I truly am blessed.

Some may say ” Why would you be happy of the challenges you’ve endured?

Because they turned out to be even more blessings. Having challenges since birth, being adopted, fighting through depression, anxiety, bullying, self-confidence, 2 hard and abusive marriages, and numerous health issues. Failed acdf surgery, 9 surgeries which leaves pain, scar tissue, and more health issues.

I became stronger. All these lead me to help others in their relationships. To have empathy for those with type 2 diabetes, cervical stenosis, depression, anxiety, stage fright, neurapathy and more. Yes, I battle daily with pain, discomfort, highs and lows. Dropping things, restless nights, tears, sadness, and more. But I still smile. I am stronger each day.

Do you know I am still capable with all I have physically and emotionally going on, but the trials my loved ones are going through, the ability to still manage my life.

I have an incredible husband who is so strong, romantic, so loving to his kids and myself and others. Hardworking as a powerlineman working on his journeyman. So spiritual and funny. He truly is my best friend. Through all struggles and we both had 2 bad marriages, he was a single father that has blessed me to become a stepmother and friend to a 8yr princess ( daddy’s girl) and a 19 yr old young man . I’ll never ever replace their mothers but I will continue to love and support as they are my own.

Blended families are a challenge but such a blessing. Same as being adopted. My trial gave me 2 amazing parents and had 9 kids and adopted my twin sister and I and 2 brothers. Family forever. Unselfish, enduring love. So yes, I’m grateful for the foster care to lead me to a forever home.

The talents of singing, lyric writing, photography, art, crafts and more lead me to others to uplift, understand and love. Fighting my stage fright and coming out of my shell. Yes, the trials, bullying and low self esteem have led me to increased blessings. I’m finding my outlit and rising and doing all that I love.

Schooling to be able to go to college at 36 and a beautiful job from home where I can get my degree in family science to help others. To fulfill a long time dream. And to be blessed to work from home, be a mom, and love my husband more. To help provide while he seeks another lineman job from being laid off.

Yes physically, emotionally, financially challenges come upon us. In our own life, family, friends and those all around. So why do I smile and thank God for all my circumstances, even when I desperately want them gone at times? Because I am beautiful. I am talented I am strong. I emphasize, love, bring laughter, tears, heart, soul and upliftment to myself, my husband, my family and all those I can. That’s the beauty of it. To be there. To uplift and inspire. Serve others. Know the pain and go through emotions with whoever. Be an example.

Why I love life . Family is everything. We are all beautiful and family. We have so much to offer .

Take your trials and just ponder and see all the work and service you can do too. Not easy but oh so wonderful.

Keep shining and smiling. Know you’re loved and prayed for

♡ jackie hall ♡

Self-esteem Courage & More

Self-esteem is a trial that since I was little, I have and continue to overcome and build up. Whether it’s being a good wife, daughter, stepmom, friend, sister, singer, writer, photographer, student or other passions I love.

After having dealt with changes in relationships from abuse, dealing with bullying, health issues and more. I’ve found that the greatest joy is lifting myself up and having others being lifted too. Whether in my own family or out in the world.

One reason why I post. Not for numbers. We’re all beautiful and not a number. It’s to help fight stage fright. Work on my dreams and passions. Closer to my degree in college to help others. Find joy in all circumstances.

Know you are amazing and beautiful in your own way. Never compare. Take steps in seeing this within. Worse bully is yourself. Yet, let yourself experience emotions and use your gifts to Express. Go find you. Love you. Enjoy you. And be nice to yourself . Share that with others. No one is more important. Go get it I support and love you. As I am doing same for me.