Trials Build You Up

As I take a moment to reflect all that I have been through and all I am going through, I truly am blessed.

Some may say ” Why would you be happy of the challenges you’ve endured?

Because they turned out to be even more blessings. Having challenges since birth, being adopted, fighting through depression, anxiety, bullying, self-confidence, 2 hard and abusive marriages, and numerous health issues. Failed acdf surgery, 9 surgeries which leaves pain, scar tissue, and more health issues.

I became stronger. All these lead me to help others in their relationships. To have empathy for those with type 2 diabetes, cervical stenosis, depression, anxiety, stage fright, neurapathy and more. Yes, I battle daily with pain, discomfort, highs and lows. Dropping things, restless nights, tears, sadness, and more. But I still smile. I am stronger each day.

Do you know I am still capable with all I have physically and emotionally going on, but the trials my loved ones are going through, the ability to still manage my life.

I have an incredible husband who is so strong, romantic, so loving to his kids and myself and others. Hardworking as a powerlineman working on his journeyman. So spiritual and funny. He truly is my best friend. Through all struggles and we both had 2 bad marriages, he was a single father that has blessed me to become a stepmother and friend to a 8yr princess ( daddy’s girl) and a 19 yr old young man . I’ll never ever replace their mothers but I will continue to love and support as they are my own.

Blended families are a challenge but such a blessing. Same as being adopted. My trial gave me 2 amazing parents and had 9 kids and adopted my twin sister and I and 2 brothers. Family forever. Unselfish, enduring love. So yes, I’m grateful for the foster care to lead me to a forever home.

The talents of singing, lyric writing, photography, art, crafts and more lead me to others to uplift, understand and love. Fighting my stage fright and coming out of my shell. Yes, the trials, bullying and low self esteem have led me to increased blessings. I’m finding my outlit and rising and doing all that I love.

Schooling to be able to go to college at 36 and a beautiful job from home where I can get my degree in family science to help others. To fulfill a long time dream. And to be blessed to work from home, be a mom, and love my husband more. To help provide while he seeks another lineman job from being laid off.

Yes physically, emotionally, financially challenges come upon us. In our own life, family, friends and those all around. So why do I smile and thank God for all my circumstances, even when I desperately want them gone at times? Because I am beautiful. I am talented I am strong. I emphasize, love, bring laughter, tears, heart, soul and upliftment to myself, my husband, my family and all those I can. That’s the beauty of it. To be there. To uplift and inspire. Serve others. Know the pain and go through emotions with whoever. Be an example.

Why I love life . Family is everything. We are all beautiful and family. We have so much to offer .

Take your trials and just ponder and see all the work and service you can do too. Not easy but oh so wonderful.

Keep shining and smiling. Know you’re loved and prayed for

♡ jackie hall ♡

Happy 5th Anniversary to us ♡

H

appy 5th Anniversary to us. Chris and I were brought together when we were building ourselves up from a divorce. He was a single dad to a 3yr girl and 14 yr old son here in Ohio.
I was in Tennessee trying to pick up pieces and Bam! Made a life .

We both have seen trials and felt alone. We’ve dealt with challenges and have overcome so much , and continue. I’m grateful for my husband who dedicates so much to provide for his family. Works hard as a father who is an example of faith and hardworking parent. I’m blessed to have and continue to be by his side. To have 2 amazing step kids to love , support, and more.

We have and continue to have our trials. Sometimes it feels better to just say “been here, done that” but we get pulled closer. We’re so much stronger. Love deepens. Our children learn a beautiful lesson of what marriage is.

One day will make our beach vacation hun. Trust me lol . Will have a getaway that we’ve been longing for since the day we said ” I do” 5 years ago.

I’m blessed to be here . Blessed to laugh,cry, have someone to put up with my stubbornness and mouth lol. To wipe my tears. I’m blessed to support you in your career as powerlineman. Put up with your stubbornness. And more importantly love harder than ever before. We got many more years to go. Love us more.

Ty God for bringing us together. Thank you for giving me a chance to love 2 amazing kids I can claim my own ♡♡♡
Here’s to forever and closer together ♡♡♡

Blessings

Count your blessings. Trust me, in my challenges I’m enduring, and I’m not gonna lie, I have many days where I can be negative and mean . But I do count my blessings ,even later after expressions. I still try to smile but it’s okay if you don’t all the time. It’s life. 🙂

I feel better when I uplift during my hard times but also more importantly to help others in their struggles. Xoxo

STOP AND REPEAT

STOP FOR A MOMENT. LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND REPEAT WHAT I WROTE IN THE CLOUDS >>>>>>>>

I am feeling so much saying this. chills are upon me. so many feels. so many tears. it’s real. I believe I can. I believe you can.

BELIEVE IT. FEEL IT. LIVE IT. ACCEPT IT. YOU MATTER. ALL OF YOU MATTER. ALL OF YOUR PAIN, SUFFERING, TRIALS, CHALLENGES, GOOD, BAD AND MORE.

Being Accepting of Others

As I continue to move forward in my life, I am trying to look at more of my trials as blessings.

Ar times it can be really hard and weigh you down. Not knowing if you’ll finish this or that. If you said the right thing. Being a good step mother and supporter to your husband who is doing all he can as a powerlineman.

Wondering if you should just not do school due to the costs but you’re almost a junior. The list can go on.

But lately I have found what I am doing right. Pushing myself to spend the time dwelling to serving, spending time with family, friends, spreading hope, and uplifting. Working on my passions and enjoying what time I can with my husband.

We all have opinions on how someone should or could have done this or that. Or blaim because of the choice you made or making. It boils down to life is hard. Stuff happens. You got to go through it . Called work in progress.

If everything was easy and everyone was doing what everyone feels they should. Then it would be miserable. Same as you not doing what you feel is right. Or judging others whether they are your partner, family,friend, associate or across the other side of the world .

I find being more accepting and reassuring that we all have our personal lives and responsibility. We must grow and that is growing together.

That’s why I love my husband. He loves the science, power lines, helping others, politics, video games and more. But we compromise on shows, when to talk about the “worldly” things and more of just focusing on positive. Not easy but it’s good.

I love the arts, crafts, writing and more. More of forgiving and my husband works with that. Just as being a mom and friend. Or a family member. Having 13 kids grow up in one house is wonderful but too many personalities.

That’s why it’s so easy to be critical. Yet, if you show empathy, compassion, and understanding that we all deserve to be here. To be born and live our lives how we believe to see fit. I am for certain there will be more harmony.

Again, as I said in beginning , I am seeing differences in marriage, life, trials and more as blessings. I wouldn’t have it any other way. Let’s me reflect and go through emotions.

Less worry. More blessed. All will work out. A reminder that if it makes you happy. If you feel good , then don’t stop. Just move priorities around and compromise. Same with all of us within ourselves. We choose how we feel, what we do, where we go. God gave us freedom. But if we didn’t disagree or make opinions and learn to grow with each other in many ways as a relationship, then why is there free agency ? Knowledge? Each other?passions? Jobs?family? Marriages?opportunities? And list goes on.

Might be a bunch of garbage or not make sense or you don’t care or agree. But to me, as I close the evening, I’m blessed.